730 days..

Within the past 730 days my entire life has been turned upside down, tossed back and forth, lofted from a building and then that process is repeated. I've beaten an addiction, gone back to it, lost my Nanny, been saved, lost Nick, shared my testimony multiple times, made new friends, got my heart broken, fallen in and out of "love", gotten in fights, cried, lost 6 friends at once in a fire, got on stage in front of 100s of middle schoolers and revealed my biggest struggle, encourage others, hurt myself, cried myself to sleep, etc.. But the significance of this day.. The significance of this day haunts me in everything I do. Exactly 730 days ago I lost my brother, my best friend, my stronghold, my rock, my everything.. 730 days ago I ran out of my chemistry class sobbing.. 730 days ago I never would have expected to be where I am.


If what happened 730 days ago never would have happened, I wouldn't be the same person that I am today. I wouldn't be as strong.. 730 days ago my best friend in the entire world killed himself and my entire life was shattered.

I miss you, Bug.


I wanna sing
While the ocean sleeps
I wanna feel
what its like to be free
I wanna to see
what you see in me
I wanna know how it feels to believe

I feel lost somehow im drifting away
Was almost gone, you brought me to life again

so let me be your lighthouse
and i'll help you find a way out
of here

I see the tide is comming
dont let it take you away from me
theres no way im jumping over
I know its your love that saved me

Cause I was lost
somehow im drifting away
was almost gone
you brought me to life again

So let me be your lighthouse
and I'll help you find a way out of here

I can see the light out
from a far away out
but its slowly drifting away from me



cause I was lost
somehow I *drifting away
was almost gone
you brought me to life again

so let me be your lighthouse
and I'll help you find a way out of here
let me be your lighthouse
and I'll help you find a way out of here