It's funny, ya know...

Seeing my family all together. You'd think it was a holiday. The only time you ever see the whole entire family together is on the holidays and now we're all together for what my Mimi said is a "family tragedy." scary to think of it that way. It's weird seeing Papa speak up and talk. He's always told his one or two stories a night, and we all love those. But Nanny usually did the talking for him, and now that she's gone..he's talking more than ever. I don't like this. I don't like how Papa can seem so ok, and just so chill.. Funny looking at him hiding it, and then looking at how I hide everything.. Runs in the family I guess?

It's that smile I'll miss most.

Who's gonna call on my birthday and sing me happy birthday every single year? Who's gonna randomly give me $100 dollars when I see them? Who's gonna let me dress up in their clothes? Who's gonna let me slide down their stairs, no matter how old I am?
So many things Ill miss about Nanny. I can't even begin to explain what an impact she had on my life.. She was a positive influence on everyone.. With that smile and how positive she was about absolutely everything.
What am I gonna do?...

I'm already missing that smile...